In Definition of: Christian Faith

Faith – knowledge, intellect, trust, interaction >> the holy trinity of faith. 1. True faith involves knowledge of the life and times, the content, and the implications of the story of Jesus as taught in the Bible; 2. True faith involves the mind-numbing-hard-to-do intellectual acceptance of the truth about Jesus; 3. True faith involves a personal reliance and trust in Jesus and His gospel; 4. True faith involves interaction with elements of the mysterious and blatantly obvious attributes of Creator God; 5. Each of these four parts of the holy trinity of faith are necessary for our restored relationship with God; we must first learn about Jesus, then accept the truth without letting our hearts turn to stone, then, move to a personal trust in Him, and finally, live a life that interacts with Him. How’s that for didactic? And yes, I know that four does not equal trinity…but I like it.

In Definition of: the Will of God

the Will of God – not nearly so hard as you might think. 1. What did Jesus say? He said to love God and to love people…those are the boundaries. This is the fence that surrounds everything that you do with your life; if what you do with your life falls within these boundaries you are within God’s will; 2. So then let’s ask another question: what makes you come alive? What makes you passionate? What do you love? The world doesn’t need people who are doing something because the world needs it, rather, the world needs people who have come alive in what they do. Soooo…if you have come alive in what you do and it falls into the boundaries of love God and love people…you are passionately living in the will of God; 3. Sitting around waiting for some sky-fairy’s will to fall into your lap just isn’t going to happen…so get up off your fat bum-bum and do something with your life > and love it!

In Definition of: the Church

the Church – a beautiful collective of Jesus followers. 1. It is a deep seeded all-inclusive community of faith in Jesus, thanks in salvation, and movement in justice; 2. We are the church, you are the church, I am the church; 3. Believe it or not, everyone is welcome – that weirdo nut-job who knows the secrets of the universe but is locked away in a padded room is welcome, and so are you; 4. The church is not emerging, it’s not submerging, it’s not outdated, it’s not postmodern (or if it is then it’s not church), it’s not a building, it’s not a political platform, it’s not where all the happy shiny people are, and, we’re not about to go away. << I suppose that could be considered a threat…but it’s not.

In Definition of: Christianeze

Christianeze – krǐst~ĕn/ëž – An alien language. 1. To the native of said language; a nonsensical and exclusive language that confuses most natives and creates tribal warfare; a language of superiority and secrecy to show who is in and who is out; 2. To the grudgingly invited outsider of said language; a nonsensical and exclusive language that confuses most natives and creates tribal warfare; a language of contempt and condemnation to show who is in and who is out; 3. In strict violation of the Geneva Anti-Christianeze accord punishable by irrelevance and loss of credibility.

Sexy Autonomy

I am sure that you have all heard the popular and incredibly chic phrase, “I am simply an autonomous complex structure of biology expressing my own thoughts, my own desires, and my own freedoms. I am an individual; free to do what I want, when I want, and how I want. Please do not enter the personal twenty-one inch stratosphere bubble of me….because it’s mine.” Oh…you haven’t heard this incredibly popular phrase before? Well, maybe that is because I just spent the sum total of all my intellectual powers crafting what is sure to become a popular and incredibly chic phrase. Or not. It is a sexy idea though isn’t it? In actuality, the vast majority of us subscribe to this idea that individuality is the most important attribute that any human can posses. The great traditions of philosophy, world religion, and humanism, have jumped in bed together, made out, and produced the most individualistic (read here: lonely) culture that mankind has ever seen. Your mom, your future spouse, your mailman, the cashier at the checkout (or the cashier you check out), your neighbor, your leaders, your professors, and that weird nut-job you see most days in the mirror have all felt the impact of the lonely and individualistic culture of now.

For years, anthropologists, linguists, and archeologists have wondered in awe at the supposed simultaneous development of great empires and civilizations around the planet that rose up, matured, got sick, died, and left artifacts and ancient clues to the nature of these peoples. Most interestingly is the fact that there is theory based on new* archeological findings that place ancient tools and ideas (such as language) in geographical places that they should not be. The implication? Ancient peoples migrated, traveled, and shared ideas across cultural lines that ultimently led to the evolution, development, growth, and sometimes destruction of the respective civilizations. In our typical self-centered fashion, we eagerly and egotistically consider our generation to be the first in the age of globalization, the universal people, and the global village. Fact is that people groups, since the beginning of civilizations, have always inspired other people groups around the world – we are just now aware of it. But really….who cares.

Well I do. In fact, all of us have been impacted by the thoughts, actions, values, and ideologies of other people. There is no one who can say they exist without outside influence. Yet, the thought remains that individualism is the highest of all human attributes. Why? Because we are as selfish as a daycare full of two year olds, as greedy as overfed boxing day shoppers, and as prideful as any gangster rapper on any given radio station. We just like ourselves so much.

Individualism thrives on the belief that the primary importance of the individual is the "virtues of self-reliance" and personal independence. The virtues of self hey? Interesting. That sounds a lot like saying, “the cooler part of hell” or “coffee is good even when it is burnt.” Where did we ever get this idea that being the individual was good? I know it wasn’t from God’s word the Bible or from the Holy Spirit teaching us. I do know that the Bible has a lot to say about selfish ambitions, pride, and greed though.

Ok – how is that for an incomplete thought – anyone want to add to this or finish it? Seriously.

Smoke and Mirrors

Have you ever felt like you lived behind some kind of curtain – desperately hoping that a little bit of smoke and mirrors would convince people that you are bigger, better, smarter, more passionate, more spiritual, or more real then you really are? Truth be told, I often times feel like I’m dancing in and out of a house filled with smoke, mirrors, and curtains only allowing a select few to see me without the smoke and mirrors while happily dancing with all the other smoke and mirror dancers.

When it comes to spirituality, so many people believe that anything is possible if they just work hard enough or long enough. Are duty and discipline the keys to salvation or to God? No. How many people think like this? It’s important to get better, move ahead, and ultimately arrive – work hard for God and you’ll get the desires of your heart. Obedience, after all, leads to blessing. God really values people who take Christianity seriously…the people who leap tall buildings in a single bound and are willing to run themselves ragged for the kingdom!! High five to these spiritual super-hero’s! I hope you don’t jump out of a phone booth one day with your cape tucked into your underwear! Ha! Really, this all seems a little suspect to me…..a little more like smoke and mirrors and a lot less about Jesus Christ.

I’m looking forward to a time and place when people move from the smoke and mirrors hero attitude to a day when we recognize that we are simply people who are screwed up, messed up, and incapable of saving ourselves. I’m looking forward to a day of stunning honesty and authenticity; the day that we begin to live. Why? Well, maybe we would actually start to understand grace.

God, thank-you for grace, your unmerited favor towards me, even though I get tired and cynical. Your grace sustains me and reminds me of your great love…I’m sorry for the smoke and mirrors.

Silver Screen Spirituality

Applaud Lord of the Rings. Be frightened by the Sixth Sense. Laugh at Bruce Almighty. Take offence at Dogma. Be amazed by the Matrix Trilogy. Squirm through Joan of Arcadia. Feel the emotion in Crash. Be conned by Catch Me if You Can. For many, the church and the cinema work in very different ways and therefore should never meet. When I discuss films with people, I am often met with one of two responses; one from the “world” and the other from the institutional church. The world often wonders why I am so interested and often moved by the religious imagery in movies. On the other hand, the church’s traditional response has been with a frown of disapproval; “Be in the world, not of the world. Flee from evil!”

In western culture, filmmakers are the storytellers that tell the tale of mystery and intrigue which appeal to and reflect many an individuals’ personal pilgrimage towards truth and purpose. Our culture is very spiritual; it is very “god” oriented but often has a magnet placed on it’s co-ordinates which causes a spinning pilgrimage of directionless experimentation. Film, T.V., and other performing arts are dealing with issues of God, angels, and the paranormal on a very regular basis while popular music is continuing to reflect the inner quest of the soul.

The truth is, for many, the institutional church is boring while spirituality seems exciting and mysterious. We now live in a “post-apologetic” world that rely’s heavily on experience and story. As a result, people are seeing flashes of the divine on screen which may be contributing to more soul searching then any three point sermon ever could!

Welcome to the narratives and parables of today. True to the form that Jesus displayed; some stories are straight and to the point while others require deeper probing to find the underlying meanings and realizations of God. The story of God is all around us, “The basic reality of God is plain enough. Open your eyes and there it is! By taking a long hard thoughtful look at what God has created, people have always been able to see what their eyes of such can’t see: eternal power, for instance, and the mystery of his divine being.” Romans 1:20 – The Message.

That being said, “spiritual malnutrition” is a very real threat if we as believers exclusively look for God in theatre, film, fiction, art, music, television. God has given us his divinely inspired word, and as believers, that needs to be our template of how we see his imprint on the world around us.

We often look for balance on theses issues, unfortunately, we do not serve a very balanced God! In fact, it is quite the opposite. Paul, in Galatians 5:16-26, addresses the matter of lifestyle choice/differences while also reminding us of the eternal battle of good vs. evil; life by the Spirit vs. acts of the sinful nature.

Our sinful nature caters to and feeds our corrupt desires. The activities mentioned here by Paul, (sexual immorality, impurity, debauchery, idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions, envy, drunkenness, and orgies), if practiced by or engaged in by believers, “disqualifies” them from the kingdom of God.

*Many of these are popular themes/issues in film, art, etc.

Life by the Spirit – As black is to white, these by-products of a spirit-filled life are to those of a sinful nature. These, (love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control), are products of a spirit directed and spirit influenced life.

*Many of these are popular themes/issues in film, art, etc.

My question then is this: What lens do you see the performing arts through? Inherent evil or simply a medium of art with many different interpretations?

How to Kill a Rabbit

Here is an interesting little convo I had with my friend Sam. He raises rabbits but is not a hippie. He was talking about some of his rabbits when he dropped the bomb that he eats them…….

Sam Whut?!? says:
the other ones are going to be tasty

Sam Whut?!? says:
hey man have you read case for Christ?

Sam Whut?!? says:
there was this one night I was contemplating stuff and was gonna drive out to cell phone range and call you to discuss things

eddie def says:
man - you should sometime
eddie def says:
you eat these rabbits??!!
eddie def says:
What the heck is wrong with you?! Your making Candace cry....

Sam Whut?!? says:
yeah rabbit is amazing
it's the most lean meat ever

Sam Whut?!? says:
killing them is kinda sketch though

eddie def says:
I read Case for Christ a bunch of years ago...

eddie def says:
how do you do it?

Sam Whut?!? says:
but once you get past it (I only have ever done one before I ever came to BC) they say it's no problem
you bop them on the head with something hard
and slit their jug
then bleed them
alive
then hang them uppside down
by the feet
slice the stomach up (without cutting the organs)

Sam Whut?!? says:
then around the "parts"
then around the feet
and peel the skin off like a sock
it's gross

Sam Whut?!? says:
the meat is so good

Sam Whut?!? says:
I was in highschool when I did the first one
I was pretty effected
I felt sick

Sam Whut?!? says:
and it took time to get over
Sam Whut?!? says:
but i have eaten rabbit for easter and stuff (ones I didn't kill) and it is amazing

Sam Whut?!? says:
so I am hoping I get over it fast when it comes time
aparantly if they wake up while you slit them their cries sound like little children skreeching


Sam Whut?!? says:
they told me that last year it happened and eveyone ran out of the house to see cause they thought is was one of the kids

Sam Whut?!? says:
it's pretty sick, even for me
(not the screaming, never head it)
Sam Whut?!? says:
heard
Sam Whut?!? says:
total blair witch

eddie def says:
yeah man

EDIT: Please do not kill rabbits.

Leadership....?

Leadership? Yeah right! More like power. Why are we as Christians so obsessed with leadership? Everyone wants to be the king of their little empire – nobody wants to be the subjects. Walk into any Christian bookstore across the nation, you will find loads of books, tapes, dvds, and seminar posters on the topic of leadership. This very column fits the description. Believe it or not, there is even a leadership Bible. Whatever happened to the followers, servanthood, and Jesus’ revelation of the “greatest being the least” etc.? Maybe we as Christian leaders need to re-think what the traditional/modern view of church leadership is.

We need leadership in the church – that is not the question. The real question is asked when it is realized that we are not the same generation of our parents…our worldview and mindset is radically different. The future is changing so rapidly. To quote a line U2, “We are on a journey and have all packed our bags for a place none of us have been” – so we’re not even sure the direction. Our world has changed. So must the church and its leadership. Welcome to a new time…the beginnings of a different kind of leadership. Leadership that is practical, relational, decentralized, fresh and changing, servant based, and (continues to be) lead by God’s spirit. This is not revolutionary in thought but possibly is a lost practice that gets buried with our busyness.

Here are some Biblical and apparently effective steps to leadership:
-Be a chicken and thresh wheat in a winepress while waiting for a celestial being to offer advice.
- Build a giant boat in the middle of nowhere; try to round up all the animals on the earth to put inside of it, get stupid drunk afterwards.
- Get a job as a shepherd when you’re 40, do that for 40 years. Experience some kind of mystical conversation with a burning bush.
- Kill a giant with a sling shot.
- Be completely obnoxious. Sleep by a fire of dung and cook your food on it, wear a bondage device and claim it has spiritual overtones.
- Run from positions of leadership – such as being made king – as often as possible.
- Tell your friends riddles and then be executed by the government.

It seems as though the current model of successful church leadership was not always the case – perhaps it has come about out of the American dream work ethic that has altered our version of Christianity. Historically, “the church” has done well by focusing on spiritual disciplines - things like sacrifice, integrity, and the mystery of God’s presence and voice. While these are mentioned in current leadership models, I’m not sure they are fully understood by the majority of leaders whose success is based on how quickly their goals are met. I believe God has called us to faithfulness before leadership.

Throughout the Bible, God has seemed to play favorites to those in the less/weaker positions to raise them to leadership. In my mind, this is both perplexing as well as it is encouraging. These Biblical models of leadership are not perfect leaders – they often are not very slick, usually short tempered, and the least likely. What they do have is authentic actions and mindsets…this means that at times they/we may be broken. We are indeed called to be examples of a “higher standard” yet the reality is that we still struggle and life situations can completely consume us.

My thought then is this: maybe it is time that we put down the megaphone of control and pick up a walking stick and join the journey of those we are leading. Beyond your call as a person to be close to God; your call to leadership is to be faithful, honest, and authentic. This transition for some of us as megaphone wielding leaders to traveler might be extremely hard; for others it may be a welcomed change in order to stretch our legs and fine tune our walking sticks. Being a part of the journey allows us to love people for real….and be loved in return. It allows us to make steps in the “wrong” direction or let other’s pass quickly by you as they journey in the same direction. What we do is not who we are. Who we are, my sense of worth and life fulfillment comes from my destination and the travelers I can help on the way. Maybe this is real leadership.

Faith Can Not Exist Without Doubt.

Marinating in my head for the last couple of years is the whole idea of faith and doubt; more specifically that they cannot exist without each other. A column is in the works presently, however, until then I would like to submit two quotes to think about.

"There are two ways to slide easily through life: to believe everything or to doubt everything; both ways save us from thinking."
- Alfred Korzybski

"The first key to wisdom is assiduous questioning; for by doubting we come to inquiry and by inquiry we come to truth."
- Peter Abelard

::Preaching:: A Response.

It has been interesting to read the number of different responses to the previous blog; some via email and others through the comment section of the blog. If you haven't yet read the previous blog...go do that and then come back and read this one. The following is an email sent to me from my friend Patrick who I know from Seymour. Not only is Pat an all around rad guy (who happens to be moving to Japan to keep the snowboard bum lifestyle alive) but he has some pretty good insights into preaching. So....here is the unedited version of a view of preaching from outside the church....enjoy! Thanks Pat!

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jeremy! hey dude i loved your write up and stoked that you included me! and i agree full heartedly with your views on this topic! to me preaching is a HUGE topic that should be adressed beacause it is a reason alot of young ppl / youth get turned away from church...its a reason i did...well one of MANY....my thoughts on it are mostly just that i feel that preachers are sooo seperated from the ppl they are preaching to.....they smile on their polpets and never really show human fear....i know preachers are human! ive seen the human preachers...the preachers that have impacted huge congregations are preachers that stoop down to the congregations level...let them know that they are human for example my parents pastor went on in a service one sunday and admitted his coming to christ was while throwing a bottle of beer at a phone post....at youth conventions the favourite speakers are the ones who show that they are at the same level or have been there....but alot of preachers (like mine) wear there suits and a smile to match and promise that everything will be alright....either they have lived completely sheltered lives or are afraid to explose themselves.....i dont know if any of that makes sense...reading over it im kinda all over the place...but all in all preaching is preaching...i dont know if theres any way of doing it to a congregation so everyone can talk and share opinion as conversation and still get done in an hour....but i think that a preacher can still conect and make the congregation feel more involved if they expose there human qualities let them know that they are not perfect and above them make more sense? goodness gracious my fingers are tired please reply back to this if i have said sumthin contradictory or said anything wrongish...i would love to keep this question burning with me too....but i must roll...so i will fo sho ttyl

patrick grey

::Preaching::

When is the last time you had a really good conversation? I am not necessarily talking about a one-time conversation that had a definite start and an end; but rather, a conversation that lasted over days, weeks, months, or even years. The kind of conversation that continues to walk through life with you - sometimes making you cry, other times invoking anger, while other times comforting, and still other times inspiring great excitement and motivation? It is the kind of dialogue where we ask questions of many people, we listen to others, we sometimes offer our own perspectives, and we ruthlessly try to come to some kind of discovery of truth. Even now as I sit here in my kitchen – hungry, unshaven, and likely smelly – I am thinking through some of the major conversations that I am involved in currently and wondering how these have been infected, impacted, and eclipsed by previous, parallel, or even future (presupposed) conversations. It seems to me that the more and more open-ended conversations I have the more and more I will be able to integrate a consistent worldview that spans through all area’s of my life. What does this mean? It means that learning is slower. It means that our teachers are all around us. It means that we might be surprised, shocked, intimidated, and even offended by where, from who, or how we discover some new bit of truth.

If there is one thing that really bugs me (and there certainly are more), it is when I am “talking” with someone and they talk so fast and furious that they completely dominate the “conversation” – leaving no room for anyone else to engage. It is kind of like the annoying girlfriend that answers all the questions for her boyfriend and then answers all of her own questions too! Boring, irrelevant, annoying. Come to think of it – this sounds a lot like what preaching has become.

Could you imagine if all of your conversations followed the same method as preaching?! I would rather be trapped in a small elevator with two old people making out! It just does not work; it is not right, it feels weird, and can get very awkward for the outsiders! What would happen if every day my wife had to listen to me share a thesis with supported evidence, witty rhetoric, cute little antidotes, and application to her life? I have a suspicion that she would accuse me of not knowing or caring about who she really is and that I am on a bit of a power trip. Yet we, as preachers, consider this form of communicating God’s word to be foundational to the community of believers? How can this be? It seems like we are in some way doing an injustice to our church communities to not allow them into the communication and conversation of God’s word. I learn best in dialogue – not monologue. I think most people are the same; it is a mystery to me as to why anyone has put up with this for so long!

So what does this mean for our church communities? To be honest, I am not that sure. I would not suggest that we abandon preaching but I would suggest that maybe there are better ways to preach. The whole point and idea of preaching is to help people become more and more like Jesus, right? I am starting to formulate some ideas and thoughts of how we can be a spiritual learning community together; it involves risk, it involves involving other people, it involves macro-evolution, it involves dialogue. I am just trying to continue the conversation…

Truth Interviews

The following is from a short paper I had complete for a TWU philosophy class I am taking. The assignment was simply to go interview people regarding truth and then write a short reponse as to what happened. Anyhow.....

Walking on to the University Campus of the Fraser Valley with the intent of engaging people in significant and meaningful conversation regarding truth and morality was an exciting and thought provoking venture. I am often amazed, if that is not too strong a word, at the highest common denominators of thought, idea, and opinion among the vastly different cross-section of students found in a learning environment. On that note, in reflection on my eight dialogues, I was amazed but not surprised by the common thread that ran and weaved its way through the conversations. Please find attached my progression of questioning and my written short hand recording of the response given.

My intent within my first couple of questions was to simply feel out the individual’s general view of truth; was it an objective absolutist view of truth or a relativistic view of truth? From this initial general conclusion, the line of questioning would follow down one of two paths; 1) questions directed at bringing contradictive conclusions of truth, or 2) questions directed at establishing how integrated ones view of truth was. Though the initial response from person to person was either objective or relative the final conclusion with every person was that truth is up to the individual – or that it is relative.

A specific that we often camped out on for a while was the whole discussion of morality, right and wrong, and the concept of intrinsically good or bad. The transition from truth to morality left every single person that I talked with trying to hold to their intellectual integrity while trying to rationalize away no objective moral code. All but one respondent had no problem asserting that two opposing truths can equally be true and co-exist and then go on to suggest that there are, indeed, moral absolutes. It was interesting (and at times comical to watch) as each person then tried to explain their earlier belief of relative truth and how that applies to morality. Contradiction, so it seems, may be easy for the general population of university students to by-pass in theory, but becomes a much more daunting task when forced to consider the implication of opposing morality on our society.

Awareness of their inconsistencies left varying bits of room for us to discover together what some possible solutions to these inconsistencies may be. It is very interesting to note that every person I shared this discovery process with made the jump and connection from truth/morality to God, religion, or spirituality within moments. Though a very small number of students were interviewed, it may be safe to assert that generally, when people think of truth and morality, their minds begin to think in some kind of meta-power beyond themselves. From my experience, as soon as people begin on this journey of wondering about the supernatural, God, or spirituality – they begin to ask the questions and search for the answers that satisfy. It was invigorating to be able to openly share the Christian idea of truth and faith with complete strangers who were somewhere along this journey. I would further attribute this openness in dialogue to the establishment of credibility before hand in the soliciting of the other individual’s opinions on life. The by-product was that they asked my opinion and beliefs. The spread of the Christian faith is not rocket-science!

One particular good conversation was with a girl named Carissa. Once completing the questionnaire she began to talk about her brother (who is a youth pastor) and how he always tries to force his beliefs on her. It was very obvious that this was really annoying and hurting her as well as moving her further away from Jesus. Too many people see religion and run from God – and this is what was happening with this girl. Anyhow, I made a comment about her name, how its root is from the Greek charis meaning grace. From that point on we got to work through the whole reality of God’s grace vs. man-made religion and how that impacts authentic Bible-believing Christ-centered spirituality. She was moved to a point of tears and is now, at least, re-oriented in the direction of Jesus. She made the comment as we parted that, “I will never be able to get away from grace because that is my name.”

I would like to submit that real education is being put in the position where ones only escape is to think. I am a learner and I am teacher. Every person I interviewed was a learner and a teacher. Life is not an autonomous event of biological interactions between organisms, but rather, a communal process of living, loving, learning, and growing together. My prayer is that those people I interviewed, Karen, Savinder, Dana, Carissa, Randy, Sarjinder, and Rose, would be plagued by the search for truth, discover truth, and discover Jesus. Amen.

Holy Immaturity.

I was reminded of something about immaturity and maturity as I was reading through some old writting today - and really, what I was reminded of is quite obvious; every person must be immature before they are ever mature! Immaturity brings a sense of recklessness, fearlessness, danger, adventure, humiliating failure, accidents, risk-taking, new ways of thinking, new ways of believing, new ways of being, and a life full of surpries! If maturity is a sense of experience, confidence, and cool, calm, calcualted, logical steps... then I don't want too much to do with it - yet! Right now, I want to be just tripping over the edge of newness, wounded on the front lines of change, and in the delivery room of the unexpected.

Jesus walked this earth followed by a group of immature, hot tempered, argumentative, not too bright, nobody important, deserters who Jesus called his disciples... and they changed the world. It was during those immature years of walking step-by-step with Jesus that the disciples did the most, learned the most, made mistakes, and put their lives in the most danger.

Someday, when I'm old... with only slightly less hair... I want to be able to look back and say, "Wow! Life was good! We made a lot of mistakes and we tried a lot of new and risky things... some things worked and other's definitly needed Febreeze... but whatever the outcome; I loved my God, my family, and my friends with every reckless, fearless, adventuress, risk-taking, expressive, accident-prone, brittle old bone in my body. Maybe by then, I will have followed my Jesus step-by-step into maturity...

That will be a good day.

foot in mouth disease

Well today was one of those days where I opened my mouth to talk to someone and everything I didn't want to say I did and everything I did want to say I didn't! This particular case of "foot in mouth" disease is a more rare strain then the person-to-person strain. Today - I was able to effectively type on MSN everything I didn't want to say! The problem and stupidity with this is that I had lots of time to type, read, re-read, decide to send or not, and then send......and, would you believe it, I still got it all wrong??!! What the heck is wrong with me?! I mean really....and then problem is what do you do when you get into "that" convo on MSN? I suppose there are a couple of options....1) appear offline and then next week when you see the person say your computer crashed, 2) hope they do the same thing, 3) send a mass email out to everyone letting them know that "someone" stole your passwords, identity, and lunch and is trying to ruin your life, 4) hope that Jesus comes, 5) blame your fingers, or 6) somehow figure out a way to say sorry.

Stupid fingers.

steezymour. 

blogging is for internerds...

This is mostly a test post to see if it really works.
Seeing as it is a test I feel compelled to say in a deep voice, "Check check."
Hope it works.
Turn up my monitors yo!